“And they overcame him by the blood of the Lamb and by the word of their testimony, and they did not love their lives to the death.” Revelations 12:11
Yesterday I had my 3rd surgery of the year. I never would have thought my 2015 would have contained some of the challenges it has. These events have strengthened and humbled me even more. He has been pursuing my soul for a purpose that only He knows.
It has been a terrifying process, so when I would feel afraid, I would strengthen myself in the Lord by recalling scriptures, listening to sermons online, reading devotionals, recalling past victories, attending church and talking with others who love the Lord. I also knew that no matter the outcome, I would be fine.
But I am beyond thankful that He showed me mercy and grace. So much in fact that I didn’t even have to stay overnight as planned.
This week has been tough. My son lost a school mate and my church a member. The former 15, the latter 25.
It is a blessing everyday that we wake up breathing. This last year has caused me to ponder some deep truths. We have little control over much of life, although many portray that they are “independent” and thus give God no glory for the daily mercies we receive, yet none of us deserve.
So today my testimony is one of gratitude. Thank You Lord for just being. Thank You for Your awesome faithfulness. Thank You Father for sitting high yet looking low. Thank You Abba for sustaining my life. Thank You that nothing is impossible with You.
“But You, O Lord are a holy shield for me, My glory and the One who lifts up my head. I cried to the Lord with my voice, And He heard me from His holy hill.” Psalm 3:3-4
God has been my shield. He has heard each of my cries as He sits on High looking low. Thank You Father! Today I received some good news from my doctor, another battle won in the war He’s fighting on my behalf.
It’s no coincidence that the Lord gave me a word for 2015, “still.” Still as in “Be still and know that I am God” Psalm 46:10 and “The Lord will fight for you; you need only to be still.” Exodus 14:14. He knew in advance the magnitude of what I would be facing.
Despite His faithfulness, I continue to struggle with whether or not I deserve His goodness. But I came to the conclusion today that I don’t. However God “remembers that we are dust” and covers us with His grace and mercy daily. Thank You Lord!
“I will both lay me down in peace, and sleep: for thou LORD, only makest me dwell in safety.” ~Psalm 4:8
“I lay down and slept; I awoke, for the Lord sustains me.” ~Psalm 3:5
I had to take a second to write this post because I am SO thankful to God for allowing me to sleep each night without the aid of a sleep inducing agent.
For the last six years I have been unable to sleep without taking some form of an OTC sleeping pill. I was troubled, anxiety ridden, and loaded down with burdens. In 2008 I even received a prescription for Ambien which was such a freaky experience, I only used it once.
But a couple of weeks ago I had a talk with the Lord. I was telling Him how I missed being able to go to sleep each night on my own. I asked Him to make this possible for me again. I was so tired of having to use something and I also believed that the after effects was causing daily grogginess. Remember, this stuff had built up in my system for six years.
The Lord knows that rest is important for our physical and mental well being as the Bible records “It is vain of you to rise up early, to sit up late, to eat the bread of sorrows: for so he giveth his beloved sleep.” Psalm 127:2 Sure enough, God answered my prayer because since then, I have been able to fall asleep as soon as my head hits the pillow!
Sometimes God’s grace, goodness, and mercy leave me astounded. This may be small potatoes to some folks reading this, but to me, it is a mountainous move. Hallelujah!
Won’t He do it?!