Testimony Tuesday

“But You, O Lord are a holy shield for me, My glory and the One who lifts up my head. I cried to the Lord with my voice, And He heard me from His holy hill.” Psalm 3:3-4

God has been my shield. He has heard each of my cries as He sits on High looking low. Thank You Father! Today I received some good news from my doctor, another battle won in the war He’s fighting on my behalf. 

It’s no coincidence that the Lord gave me a word for 2015, “still.” Still as in “Be still and know that I am God” Psalm 46:10 and “The Lord will fight for you; you need only to be still.” Exodus 14:14. He knew in advance the magnitude of what I would be facing. 

Despite His faithfulness, I continue to struggle with whether or not I deserve His goodness. But I came to the conclusion today that I don’t. However God “remembers that we are dust” and covers us with His grace and mercy daily. Thank You Lord! 

Be Still

“Be still and know that I am God; I will be exalted among the nations, I will be exalted in the earth.” Psalm 46:10

This year instead of creating a list of New Year’s resolutions, I chose a single phrase to center the upcoming 365 days around. The dictionary defines still as “not moving or making a sound”  “deep silence and calm.” It sounds easy enough, yet being “still” has been a real challenge for me. Especially considering that I have yet to totally surrender to the will of the Lord.

Being still is a scary concept for a person like me. Being still means being lazy and incompetent. It means that you are dependent on others to do things for you. This thought goes against my very nature. I’m impatient which doesn’t lend well to stillness. I’m also stubborn and determined to finish anything I start. I simply can’t trust anyone to do it for me.

I spent time really pondering Proverbs 46:10 and what it means. Allowing myself to be still glorifies God and his omnipotence. I CAN be still because I know that God is more than capable of handling anything that may come my way. He doesn’t need my assistance. I don’t have to play Robin to His Batman. My faux superpowers pales in comparison to His. He already knows beforehand the trials I will encounter; so who else is better equipped to lead the way in battle? To paraphrase Exodus 14:14, the Lord will fight for me and I only need to be still. It shows others how we are strengthened by Him in our obvious weakness without doing anything other than being still. It gives way to blessings that testify God’s goodness and His desire to see us happy. But remember, he will never force stillness upon us-we have to choose to accept the invitation.

Basking in this still place I know that can depend on Him to fulfill my needs. It relieves my anxiety knowing that I don’t have to do it all. Admittedly I can’t do a single thing without His unmerited grace. And here I thought I was running off of my own might and fortitude when I was being fueled with God power this whole time.