I Called…

“And if we know that he hear us, whatsoever we ask, we know that we have the petitions that we desired of him.” ~1 John 5:15

…and God answered. Today I feel so triumphant. This morning on the drive to work I prayed specifically that God would use me to help someone. 
 After making some copies during my prep period, I was headed to my room when a student called out to me. I didn’t hesitate when she beckoned me over, but I wasn’t sure she meant me. I did not know the girl. Iheaded her direction and saw that she had a friend with her who was crying. She explained her friend’s dilemma so I invited them to my room. 

I won’t go into detail, but let’s just saw I received the opportunity to serve as well as glorify God. 

Hallelujah! 

I don’t know why I am so in awe that God knows what is going on with me, cares and hears. But I tell you, I was almost in tears. My road has been a tough one. 

As if to confirm that He is indeed listening to me, I received this email today: 


I requested to be prayed for a few months ago. How timely this was for me. I was beyond overjoyed! And thankful that He hears! 

Shut Your Mouth 

“Death and life are in the power of the tongue. And those who love it will eat its fruit.”  ~Proverbs 18:21

When things are not going well in my life, out of fear, I have the tendency to complain, gossip and resort to a negative mindset. It’s like I already know the terrible outcome based upon “evidence”- the very antithesis of faith. 

 It took me a while to realize that this behavior is merely a display of faithlessness. It shows that I don’t believe in the omnipotence of God. If I did, I would “be still.” I quickly forget that His promise is that ALL things will work for the good of those who love Him and are called according to His purpose. I surely love Him and believe that I have been called by Him. So what’s my problem?!

I’ve concluded that sometimes we just need to shut our mouths. The Lord has everything under control. He has already told us that the battle belongs to Him. All we have to do is hold our peace in the midst of it. 

And when we don’t shut our mouths, He will shut it for us. The angel Gabriel tells Zachariah the priest he’s going to have a son. But the priest needs proof.  

“How can I be certain? My wife and I are well passed childbearing years.”  
The angel responds “Your mouth will be shut because you did not believe the good news.” Luke 1:5-23

This week I plan to be quiet. I want to hear every message that God has for me. I AM going to trust Him to guide me through the challenging situation I am currently navigating. I need His guidance and I can’t afford to let my mouth get me in trouble. It can’t be done without HIM. I’m leaning on Him for what He promised. 

My lips are sealed! 

Note to Self

“The steadfast love of the LORD never ceases; his mercies never come to an end; they are new every morning; great is your faithfulness.” ~Lamentations 3:22-23
The Lord is faithful even we are not. How do I know this to be true? Simple-our lack of faith does not nullify His. So I continue to praise Him for His goodness, love, mercy, favor, grace and faithfulness! Though He slay me, yet  I will trust in Him!” Job 13:15

Conqueror 

“Yet in all these things we are more than conquerors through Him who loved us.” ~Romans 8:37

Today marks the one year anniversary of my first life saving surgery. I had a total of four, but the first was the most significant. 

I was terrified as I had never had surgery before. Up until my diagnosis, I was relatively healthy. Doctors, nurses, specialists and technicians all marveled at this fact. 

The night before the operation I was filled with anxiety-not knowing if it was the last time I would ever see my two boys again. I had spent as much time as humanly possible with them. 

On the operating table I could not relax despite having already received potent anesthetics. I was wide awake and with tears rushing like rivers down my face, called out for my deceased mother. 

My surgeon came over and held my hand. I felt the healing blood of the Lord surge through me. After that, I peacefully surrendered to a drug induced coma. And by the grace of God, He saw fit to favor me. Hence I am still here one year later. 

Why, I do not know. But I do know how thankful beyond words I am. He kept me in His shadow in a most desolate time. Hallelujah! 

Tea Talks 

“God, pick up the pieces of my life. Put me back together again. I give you my praise.” ~Jeremiah 17:14

My cup of tea gave me a much needed reminder: “He takes the broken pieces and makes them beautiful.” ~Ecclesiastes 3:11

It Is Written

“Be imitators of me, just as I also am of Christ.” ~1 Corinthians 11:1

I came across this beautiful comment made by my favorite musician, Prince and thought I’d share: 

God is a generous and loving being. It is written we should act like God. There are enough opportunities. 

I am keeping my eyes open and my ears tuned for such opportunities to glorify God. 

I am thankful that Prince was able to redeem himself and find the narrow road that leads to life before it was too late. 

Let the redeemed of the Lord say so! 

Hannah’s Prayer

“O my lord! As your soul lives, my lord, I am the woman who stood by you here, praying to the Lord.” 1 Samuel 1:26

Today I was reading scripture when I came across Hannah’s prayer. I was really struck by it so I thought I would share: 

My heart rejoices in the Lord; My horn is exalted in the Lord. I smile at my enemies, Because I rejoice in Your salvation. 

No one is holy like the Lord, For there is none besides You, Nor is there any rock like our God. 

Talk no more so very proudly; Let no arrogance come from your mouth, For the Lord is the God of knowledge; And by Him actions are weighed. 

The bows of the mighty men are broken, And those who stumbled are girded with strength. Those who were full have hired themselves out for bread, And the hungry have ceased to hunger. Even the barren has borne seven, And she who has many children has become feeble. 

The Lord kills and makes alive; He brings down to the grave and brings up. The Lord makes poor and makes rich; He brings low and lifts up. He raises the poor from the dust. And lifts the beggar from the ash heap, To set them among princes, And make them inherit the throne of glory. 

For the pillars of the earth are the Lord’s, And He has set the world upon them. He will guard the feet of His saints, But the wicked shall be silent in the darkness. 

For by strength no man shall prevail. The adversaries of the Lord shall be broken in pieces; From heaven He will thunder against them. The Lord will judge the ends of the earth.  

He will give strength to His King, And exalt the horn of His anointed. 


Testimony Tuesday 

And this is the confidence that we have toward him, that if we ask anything according to his will he hears us. And if we know that he hears us in whatever we ask, we know that we have the requests that we have asked of him. ~1 John 5:14-15

God does not disappoint because I have a testimony to His goodness in the 11th hour. Tonight I attended the graduation at the school where I work. After the ceremony, one of my students asked me to wait a moment because he had something to show me. I had no idea what to expect.   

He presented me with a large white envelope. I opened it and the contents took a minute for me to process. I had forgotten all about it as I have been dealing with some personal issues as of late. It was an acceptance package from ISU. 

I immediately broke into tears at the goodness of the Lord. I had prayed for this and God saw fit to say yes even the odds were stacked against him in the eyes of man.  

My student did not do well on the ACT or the SAT. In fact, he only received a composite score of 9 his second time taking the ACT. He needed a minimum score of 13. Nor did he pass the ECA which is the graduation qualifying exam in our state. 

I decided to contact ISU and speak with someone in Admissions. On May 8th, I wrote a letter on his behalf and helped him pen a personal statement. Both would be presented to the ISU Review Board. I prayed and we waited. In the meanwhile he received a waiver for the ECA. 

Seeing that letter was a perfect way to end the night. However, I can’t take credit for this as I was only used by God to carry out His will. ALL the glory goes to Him! He has been showing me so much faithfulness, favor, and mercy that it is overwhelming at times. But I’m hear to scream from the mountain top that the goodness of the Lord is real! 

  

Lord, Have Mercy

“It is of the LORD’S mercies that we are not consumed, because his compassions fail not. They are new every morning: great is thy faithfulness.” Lamentations 3:22-23

Yesterday in church I looked around and noticed just how many people were shedding tears of brokenness. The hurt was palpable on so many faces. It is easy for me to recognize my old familiar friend, Pain.

The heaviness in the air made me feel such compassion. It’s hard to hurt, I know all too well. Suffering literally sucks the life out of you. While I do believe that there is value in the valley, too much overwhelms the soul.

I suppose most people go to church to nurse their wounded hearts. And to get sustenance for the week ahead. I do.

The messiness of life can drain us. It leaves us emotionally barren. Only the Great Physican can remedy this with His abundant, sufficient grace. The Bible tells us that His mercies are new every morning and that He is close to the brokenhearted.

The only thing we can do to combat the pain is to stay near God. Stay in His Word. Stay around likeminded believers. Stay in prayer. Stay faithful. Stay hopeful. Stay patient. Stay still.