Strange Days

“Beloved, do not think it strange concerning the fiery trial which is to try you, as though some strange thing happened to you; but rejoice to the extent that you partake of Christ’s sufferings, that when His glory is revealed, you may also be glad with exceeding joy” ~1 Peter 4:12-13

It’s been a long while since I posted. I have gone through various things that have left me depleted, but yet not defeated-so I’m back counting it all joy. 

I have so much on my mind, plate, and heart. I’m worried about being able to pay my son’s college tuition, dealing with the sometimes debilitating effects of fibromyalgia, the demanding pressures of teaching at an urban high school that will be closing soon, BILLS, BILLS, BILLS-paying student loans and hospital bills from a life threatening illness I endured two years ago, balancing work and life, family problems, the various natural disasters and people suffering as a result, has had my heart heavy-you name the problem and rest assured I’ve been laden down with it. 

What’s a girl to do other than to put on the garment of praise for a spirit of heaviness? I know that there is glory on the other side. I know that there is a place of peace in which I will have a moment to catch my breath from the attacks hammering my daily existence. I simply have to press onward because I know despite what I face, God is good all the time AND all the time, God is good!!!



“Be joyful in hope, patient in affliction, faithful in prayer.” Romans 12:12

I almost let the devil win. I have been spiritually, mentally and physically bogged down by a trial that I am going through and that it is showing on my face. 

I’ve lost my smile. I felt like if I smiled that I was content with the situation. 

But this morning I practiced smiling. It felt strange at first and then it felt so good! Hallelujah! Trouble doesn’t last always so I’m counting it all joy. 

Put It In Reverse 

“Do everything without complaining and arguing.” ~Philippians 2:14

It seems that laundry is a never ending cycle at my house. The hamper is seldom empty for long. Frustrated, I decided to google articles about how others deal with laundry overload hoping to find some solutions for myself. However, instead of tips, I found a lot of complaining. This made me pause and think about how we should flip every negative thought into a positive one.

For instance, instead of griping about having to do copious amounts of laundry, I can be thankful that I have the convenience of both a washer and dryer at home and a laundry area in which to do it in. Not to mention the necessary supplies to get it all done.

Sometimes, no, most of the time, I dislike driving. Between chauffeuring my two boys to and fro school and their many activities, driving myself to work, and running errands and other miscellaneous things that require me to be behind the wheel, I am usually exhausted from the mere act. However, I force myself to refocus my thoughts because I am blessed to even have a vehicle to drive. I can come and go as I please. I am not tied to the bus, uber, cabs, or the mercy of others.

Periodically I feel insecure about my appearance. My skin is acne and blemish prone. I am starting to show signs of aging, aka gravity calling. My hair is even starting to thin and grey. My teeth are not as white as I would like them to be. I have “ballerina” feet after years of dancing. I am usually stiff when I wake up in the morning. But once I recall that I am “fearfully and wonderfully made, I am alright with myself. God made no mistakes when he designed me long before I was placed in my mother’s womb. Besides beauty is vanity-an illusion if you will though we’ve placed so much importance on it. “Charm is deceptive and beauty fades. but a woman who fears the Lord, she shall be praised.” Proverbs 31:30.

At times my job can be a real headache. I am a public school teacher in an urban setting. The politics of it all can be simply mind boggling. But because of my job, I am able to provide for myself and my children. The Bible says in Colossians 3:23-24 “Whatever you do, work heartily, as for the Lord and not for men, knowing that from the Lord you will receive the inheritance as your reward. You are serving the Lord Christ. I have been striving to remember this. I know some of the people I encounter at work will only meet Jesus through my attitude and actions. I am not only serving my students and coworkers mentally, but spiritually as well whether they receive it or not.

Even experiencing many bad days can be thought of in reverse. Someone is always worse off than you are. We are instructed to count it ALL joy. “At present you may be temporarily harassed by all kinds of trials. This is no accident. It happens to prove your faith which is infinitely more valuable than gold.” 1 Peter 1: 6-7.

You see, I could go on and on with things that I complain about. My personality is on the melancholy side. I used to call myself a “realist.” But truth be told, I was just another whiny brat. We take so many thing in life for granted. An amazing amount. I no longer want to live this way. I want to be thankful for everything as it CAN be used by God. He is an expert at bringing the good out of a bad situation. As Rick Warren likes to say “Everything is Father-filtered.”

Thinking negatively is actually a form of disrespect to God. It suggests that He is not in control. Or that He is not capable. Or that we know better than He does. It suggests an ungrateful heart. I pray and repent that the Father forgives me for my doubt, worry, and complaining. Lord, I trust You!