In Spirit and Truth

“But the hour is coming, and now is when the true worshippers will worship the Father in spirit and truth; for the Father is seeking such to worship Him. God is Spirit, and those who worship Him must worship in spirit and truth.” John 4:23-24

Today’s church service was different than anything I’ve ever experienced before. I came expecting to receive a word from our Father, and I suppose I did in an unusual way. 

We had a guest today, Vicki Yohe. She sang three beautiful praise songs.

  But after she finished, it wasn’t followed by preaching as I expected. Vicki stated she felt God wanted her to tell us that the spirit of true worship wasn’t found at our church. I can’t really explain what took place next but we spent more than 90 minutes in worship. No sermon, just worship. 

I am not good at worshipping God as I’ve never really known exactly what it entails. When I think of worshipping God, I think of believing in Him and declaring Him as King of my life. But worship is a verb, it’s something that you do. 

I am a “quiet” parishioner. Even though I cry often, the tears are usually silent. When I lift my hands, I lift them low. I’ve never spoken in tongues, danced, or ran around the sanctuary. I don’t know why but I suppose it’s because I don’t want to draw attention to myself.

Today I didn’t care.

Like many in the congregation I had to be guided.   Without prompting I took the broken vessel that I am straight to the Master Potter. I am believing God for one of His promises and I am willing to wrestle with Him to receive it! I felt so stripped bare of my facade of strength, so vulnerable, so transparent. Exhausted. Humbled. I seriously think I had a spiritual nervous nervous breakdown today. Life has been severely testing me with one trial after another. All of the years I’ve spent running from God, all the rejection, pain, and low self worth I’ve  ever felt, the good and bad I’ve done in my life came racing to mind. Today I couldn’t deny the fact that I can’t do a SINGLE thing outside of Jehovah God. It was frightening and liberating at the same time.  One of Dr. Charles Stanley’s life principles is to “fight all your battles on your knees” because we “stand tallest and strongest on our knees.”

So I fell down on my knees at the feet of the Lord. I took all of my woes with me and cried unto Him until I could cry no more. I thanked Him. I praised Him. I gave Him the glory He so rightly deserves. “Nobody greater…” 

Thankfully I had my good friend right next to me because she literally had to help me get up, lol. Our pastor acknowledged that the church has not done a good job teaching the Body of Christ how to worship. I know I have a lot to learn as I know we are supposed to worship Him in spirit and truth. I am looking forward to worshipping Him the way I am supposed to! Hallelujah! Amen!



So I was in Family Christian Bookstore a few days ago and heard a lovely song playing. I inquired who the artist was but neither associate knew. I remembered one of the lines said something about “trust without borders” and I figured that I could Google it later.

Yesterday one of my followers, Bri,left a comment on a post about a praise group she liked called Hillsong and I promised to check them out. A woman of my word, I did. I also googled the partial song lyric and lo and behold, the song was titled “Oceans” by drumroll please…Hillsong!

This song is beautiful and melodic and references Peter stepping out on faith. And I LOVE the ocean. I think it is one of the most majestic of God’s creations.


Encouraging Yourself

“For whatever was written in the past was written for our instruction, so that we may have hope through endurance and through the encouragement from the Scriptures.” ~Romans 15:4 
In the wicked world in which we live, it is so vital that one is able to keep themselves going in any godly was possible. Fellowship with other believers, reading and memorizing scripture, listening to praise/gospel music, reading Christian titles, attending church services and Bible study, praying, journaling, watching sermons on YouTube, and reading/writing faith blogs are just a few ways to stay the course. 

Our smart phones can really serve us in this area, too. There are many Bible and prayer apps to help us keep in touch with the Lord. I use the notepad on my phone to help myself stay encouraged. 

  These scriptures are right at my fingertips. When I need a little push, I read through the various scriptures and thoughts that I’ve recorded. 
How do you stay motivated to keep your eyes on God? Do tell! 

On Goodness

“I do not set aside the grace of God; for if righteousness comes through the law, then Christ died in vain.” Galatians 2:21

“They have all turned aside; They have together become unprofitable; There is none who does good, no, not one.” Romans 3:12

I want my Christian light to shine. I don’t want to be a person in which others can’t tell that I am a follower of Christ based upon my deeds and words . However, it’s been hard for me. It’s true that you have to die to self daily. As Paul so eloquently said in Romans 7:15, “For what I am doing, I do not understand. For what I will to do, that I do not practice; but what I hate, that I do.  If, then, I do what I will not to do, I agree with the law that it is good.  But now, it is no longer I who do it, but sin that dwells in me.  For I know that in me (that is, in my flesh) nothing good dwells; for to will is present with me, but how to perform what is good I do not find.  For the good that I will to do, I do not do; but the evil I will not to do, that I practice.  Now if I do what I will not to do, it is no longer I who do it, but sin that dwells in me.” I truly want to do good and be a good person, but my flesh is so weak.

I had a conversation via text with a close friend the other day about this very topic. She is of the opinion that one can be good on their own merit. I disagree strongly. We cannot be good on our own strength. If that’s the case, we would have no need for a Savior. And the Bible clearly states “For by grace are you saved through faith; and that not of yourselves: it is the gift of God: Not works, lest any man should boast.” Ephesians 2:8-9. I know that I can not make it without God’s grace and mercy. I depend on this. Without Him I am a MESS. I can’t trust myself to do the right thing at all times. I need to be covered in the Blood of the Lamb and dressed fully in the armor of God. Even on my best day, I am not worthy. Simply put, I can’t function without Him.

The mentality that being good is enough outside of Jesus is one of Satan’s deceptive ploys. He tricked Eve with this same strategy. Don’ let the devil fool you into believing otherwise.The truth is that we need God. For everything. Period. The End.

Testimony Tuesday

“I will both lay me down in peace, and sleep: for thou LORD, only makest me dwell in safety.” ~Psalm 4:8

“I lay down and slept; I awoke, for the Lord sustains me.” ~Psalm 3:5

I had to take a second to write this post because I am SO thankful to God for allowing me to sleep each night without the aid of a sleep inducing agent.

For the last six years I have been unable to sleep without taking some form of an OTC sleeping pill. I was troubled, anxiety ridden, and loaded down with burdens. In 2008 I even received a prescription for Ambien which was such a freaky experience, I only used it once.

But a couple of weeks ago I had a talk with the Lord. I was telling Him how I missed being able to go to sleep each night on my own. I asked Him to make this possible for me again. I was so tired of having to use something and I also believed that the after effects was causing daily grogginess. Remember, this stuff had built up in my system for six years.

The Lord knows that rest is important for our physical and mental well being as the Bible records “It is vain of you to rise up early, to sit up late, to eat the bread of sorrows: for so he giveth his beloved sleep.” Psalm 127:2 Sure enough, God answered my prayer because since then, I have been able to fall asleep as soon as my head hits the pillow!

Sometimes God’s grace, goodness, and mercy leave me astounded. This may be small potatoes to some folks reading this, but to me, it is a mountainous move. Hallelujah!

Won’t He do it?!

Soul Food

“O taste and see that the LORD is good: blessed is the man that trusteth in him.” Psalm 34:8


At this time in my life I am really hungering for the Word of the Lord. I wish I could spend all day shifting through my Bible for treasures. I even have a Journibible that I have yet to use. 

I want Him to speak to me and I am ever so careful to listen. Things that I once deemed as coincidence I now see is really the Lord communicating with me, His beloved. William Temple is noted for saying “When I pray, coincidences happen, and when I don’t, they don’t.” Everything is orchestrated by the Hands and timing of the One Most High. 

I want to know His word intimately. I want to be able to comfort and support others with scriptural knowledge. I want to be aware of God’s promises. And I want to be able to use the Word to fight the enemy.  

I also like having conversations with others that serve as testimony to His goodness and grace. I want to glory His holy name in all that I do. He is everything and I am so thankful that I am His servant.

I wish I could sit at His feet and learn “For a day in thy courts is better than a thousand. I had rather be a doorkeeper in the house of my God, than to dwell in the tents of wickedness.” Psalm 84:10